Sumter, S. C. Nov. 29, 1866
Dear Fuller:--
You are supposed to be interested in all my joys and sorrows, especially
joys, and I am going to tell you what has made me happy this week.
And in order to do it to the best advantage, I am going on our economical
plan and write between the lines.
The consumption of paper in the department of the South--our portion
of it--is really alarming. When the number of letters written reaches
an average of ten a week, it is time something was done to make
two sheets answer for a letter vide this illegible scrawl. Then
to improve the matter still more my head is in a sad state of repletion,
and aI cannot tell whether a single word is right or wrong. I feel
all at loose ends.
We have moved this week into the house we are to occupy for the
winter. It is a white-washed cottage, built after the usual plan
of houses here. There is one large room surrounded with little roomlets
that seem to have broken out on it like warts. The large room and
our roomlet are sealed--that is have an inner layer of boards over
the joists and timbers of the house. The other roomlets are merely
four barely walls. Closet, peg, or shelf--of these the house
is innocent as a hencoop. It is nicely whitewashed which makes it
particularly pleasant when you want to brush by somebody and the
wall is on the other side--you look as if you had been out in a
snowstorm. All the roomlets have outside doors, and the great room
has two--all open upon broad stoops. The doors are not troubled
with latches or fastenings of any kind. The house boasts two sashed
windows; all the rest have wooden shutters, but then we are going
to have glass windows when our landlord gets over his hurry.
I don't know what his hurry is I am sure. One of his duties is to
carry the mail-bag from the station to the post-office, a distance
of three-eights of a mile, but that can't be his worry, for he never
gets it there till an hour and a half after the ? comes in. Our
house is embosomed in cedar trees, dry leaves and turnips. We are
so glad to be in a place where we can unpack, and feel as if we
were going to stay.
I have begun my winter's work of visiting and have found my winter's
pet. It is a poor blind girl who has ha rheumatic fever till her
limbs are all drawn out of shape. She has only a grandmother to
take care of her, and the grandmother is herself a cripple. Sarah
is a mulatto and very pretty indeed. She is a member of the church
here on probation, and is to be baptized when Mr. Whittemore comes.
I go to her or send for her to come to me every day, to read to
her and teach her passages to repeat. Poor girl, she sits there
in that poor hut so patient and uncomplaining, that it is enough
to make one ashamed to have so little gratitude for so many comforts.
Her face always lights up so beautifully when I go in, for she knows
my step now, and her grandmother says listens for it all day until
I come. Is it not a privilege to be so much to any human being?
One thing the people almost always do when I call is to make me
a cup of coffee. It is the only thing most of them can do except
bring us a few enormous sweet potatoes--they are so very poor. They
make good coffee, too; the only drawback is that they seem to have
the same exalted idea of us that the old lady had of Gen. washington
under similar circumstances when she assured him that the coffee
wouldn't be any too good for his honor if it were all molasses.
But I always swallow it bravely and praise it all I can.
I haven't yet got so far as to tell you what has made me happy
this week. You remember I told you about Mr. Whittemore to whom
I have to write so often and how much I liked his letters, because
there is so much individuality about them. I told you he was coming
in a few weeks, that he is to be our guest, and that I am anxiously
waiting to see if he will fulfil my expectations of him in a nearer
acquaintance. He is a Methodist minister--did I tell you that? He
is to dedicate the church which is being built here, and in one
of his letters wrote me about what was to be done at that time,
and mentioned that the Lord's Supper would be celebrated. I began
at once to dread the awkwardness of explaining to him the reasons
for absenting myself from this ceremony, or else running the risk
of deceiving him into thinking me a church-member. At last I resolved
to write to him, explaining my position, and appealing to his judgment
if I were free to join with the rest or not. I received in return
a most kind, most liberal, most Christian letter, which I wish I
could show you. He says "Come ye that love the Lord!"
is "always my invitation. If you are of that number then are
you my sister in Christ, and the blessed Jesus is our Elder Brother
as well as Savior. My sister--your own heart is the judge of its
acceptance with the Master and fellowship with saints. I shall not
send you from the Lord's Supper. I administer not the elements of
a sectarian Savior but the sacred memorial of a risen Lord."
You cannot think how happy that letter has made me--not all because
I may freely join with my fellow Christians here in the service
of love to our elder brother, though that is a great and to me not
a common privilege--but because it has given me a friend such as
I need here, very, very much. Our work here, if we are faithful,
must be a missionary work, and we must have a great deal of religious
influence among our people. I, at least, need very much of counsel
as to the best manner of approaching them and ministering to their
spiritual wants. I must ask such counsel of one in whom I have confidence,
and had he written differently, I could never have asked him
again.
I must stop. My head is like a humming top.
Now it is tomorrow night, and I am sitting by a blazing fire with
this horrid pen to finish your precious letter,--that is I suppose
it will be precious in proportion to the effort it requires to write
it. I was a little disappointed at not receiving any letter from
you today. I wanted some idea to finish up with, having been so
destitute of them from the beginning. I thought I had some today,
but my carpenter came for me to go over and tell him how to make
the pulpit which was, as the immortal Megg remarked, about repeating
poetry, "a great mental strain," since I have not been
much accustomed to building pulpits heretofore.
How I wish you could come here and see all my people here so I
could talk to you about them. Did I tell you about Matt Hampton,
who had one "of de bery toughest kind ob massas?" as
one of his friends told me. Matt was an overseer--no enviable position
for a slave, since he was held responsible for all the misdeeds of
those under his charge. "Many de whippin I get, kase de rest
didn't do right," said he to me one night. Then I looked at
him a great handsome six feet tall fellow, black as night, strong
as a lion, true as steel, gentle as a child, and as kind hearted
and I fairly burned with indignation. Yet he spoke of it as a thing
of course. He has no hard feeling against his master. Could we forgive
such wrongs? How much this country has to answer for!
There's a boy come to read--a dear handsome little fellow--who
can't come in the day time. Good night-duty calls me. Love to Mrs.
Fisk.
Yours truly
Jane B. Smith.
Box 89