Yesterday I had in my own rooms a very interesting class of men.
One of them was very earnest in wishing me to read as much as I
possibly could from "General John." (The Epistle general
of John.) I imagine he thinks the word of a Genl is a voice of authority.
The col'd people hold Genl Grant as hardly second to Lincoln. "I
shall reverence him till I die, and every colored person ought to,"
Mr Hume says. "Didn't he take the yoke off my neck? And a heavy
yoke it was, too. I can't help respecting all Northern people, whether
they are good or bad, they did so much for my color." Mr Hume
is a young stage driver; enthusiastic, anxious to learn, but not
persistent; broken by the ladies who preceded me from using tobacco
and drinking whiskey. I want to tell you some of his outloud thinking.
(It was truly simple and honest). Mr Hume was very much charmed
with my friend Miss Whittier and he frequently speaks of her with
great interest. A few days ago he said to me, "Strange that
a voice should have such an effect! I never shall forget hearing
Miss Whittier speak so pleasantly to her white mice, and when I
go driving along, I find myself saying, as she did, 'Why don't you
come out?' I wish I was worth one hundred thousand dollars; I certainly
would court Miss Whittier, as sure as you are born. Perhaps she
would feel insulted, but why should she? Ar'n't we all human? Didn't
God make us both? Some folks wouldn't marry a white person, but
I'd just as lief as to marry a colored one. I like em just as well,
if they are allright. If they are republican. I surely do
love her.''
A col'd man, not as sober as he should be, came to me a few days
ago, and said he wished me to teach him to read and write. "I
want to get office," he said. "I want to qualify the county.''
One mother who had sent her boy to me, month after month, without
tax, said when I sent to her directly for it, "I have not a
mouthful of food in the house," and the next morning she was
seen drinking a glass of whiskey at a shop counter. I only wonder
where the money comes from for the whiskey. The Father of two of
my boys had six thousand dollars owed to him when I came to Gordonsville,
and he has built house after house since I came, but he cannot get
pay for his work.
Many families earn a scanty support by taking lunches to the train
but the depot agent kicks and cuffs them unmercifully and knocks
their waiters from their heads. One young consumptive, in whom I
felt a great deal of interest, found his way to the cars with his
waiter, one day, after weeks of close confinement. He was weak,
and was really unable to work, but he had a wife and babe at home,
and felt proud that his weak hands could still support them. But
Mr Scott overturned his waiter, scattering his provisions and breaking
his crockery. The poor man has lately died. He was an eloquent eulogizer
of "the North" and it was refreshing to talk with him.
I don't know whether I have told you Laura Spicers story. She
was sold from her husband some years ago, and he, hearing she was
dead, married again. He has had a wavering inclination to again
unite his fortunes with hers; and she has been persistent in urging
him to do so. A few days ago she received a letter from him in which
he said, "I read your letters over and over again. I keep them
always in my pocket. If you are married I don't ever want to see
you again." And yet, in some of his letters, he says, "I
would much rather you would get married to some good man, for every
time I gits a letter from you it tears me all to pieces. The reason
why I have not written you before, in a long time, is because your
letters disturbed me so very much. You know I love my children.
I treats them good as a Father can treat his children; and I do
a good deal of it for you. I was very sorry to hear that Lewellyn,
my poor little son, have had such bad health. I would come and see
you but I know you could not bear it. I want to see you and I don't
want to see you. I love you just as well as I did the last day I
saw you, and it will not do for you and I to meet. I am married,
and my wife have two children, and if you and I meets it would make
a very dissatisfied family.''
Some of the children are with the mother, and the father writes,
"Send me some of the children's hair in a separate paper with
their names on the paper. Will you please git married, as long as
I am married. My dear, you know the Lord know both of our hearts.
You know it never was our wishes to be separated from each other,
and it never was our fault. Oh, I can see you so plain, at any-time,
I had rather anything to had happened to me most that ever have
been parted from you and the children. As I am, I do not know which
I love best, you or Anna. If I was to die, today or tomorrow, I
do not think I would die satisfied till you tell me you will try
and marry some good, smart man that will take good care of you and
the children; and do it because you love me; and not because I think
more of the wife I have got than I do of you. The woman is not born
that feels as near to me as you do. You feel this day like myself.
Tell them they must remember they have a good father and one that
cares for them and one that thinks about them every day. My very
heart did ache when reading your very kind and interesting letter.
Laura I do not think that I have change any at all since I saw you
last. I thinks of you and my children every day of my life. Laura
I do love you the same. My love to you never have failed. Laura,
truly, I have got another wife, and I am very sorry, that I am.
You feels and seems to me as much like my dear loving wife, as you
ever did Laura. You know my treatment to a wife and you know how
I am about my children. You know I am one man that do love my children.
You will please make a [?] of the thing."